I've been planning on starting a blog for years. Seriously, years. It's taken me so long to finally get around to it because initially I wanted to write about fashion, then I wanted to write about music, then I decided to start a food blog. However, this blog isn't about any of those things.
This blog is about life. Raw, pure life. Not any of the little extra things we make a big deal about, but thoughts, ideas, and inspiration. The things that have the most power.
The idea for this blog came suddenly. I was feeling especially inspired one day last week and had the thought to blog about the things I've learned and felt. I kind of shrugged it off a little, but I couldn't stop thinking about blogging. I ended up coming up with tons of ideas I'm passionate about for blog posts and got really excited. I decided this is something I definitely need to do.
I have been on such a continuous high for the past week. It's a feeling I honestly don't think I've ever experienced. You know the feeling you get after accomplishing something you've been stressed about? Or how your eyes feel so much clearer after letting out bottled up emotion and crying? I've had an extreme combination of those two feelings.
Unfortunately, as in most cases, this amazing feeling came after hitting an extremely low point. In fact, that low point lasted a whole year.
I'm sure we all say this, and I know I have a few times, but this past year has probably been the most challenging one for me so far. I have kept so many things to myself in the past year, ultimately because of fear. I kept myself from feeling any type of emotion, which led to a few emotional breakdowns.
I hate to be that person who blames all their problems on someone else, but I believe people have a huge affect on you. Because of just one person and their power over me, I completely lost myself. I became manipulated. I was in a constant fog for a year. I didn't know who I was or what I was even doing. I lost my vision and direction. I knew I needed to change these feelings, but I felt so stuck. I decided to ignore the reality of it and became angry at myself and others. For some reason, it made me cut myself off from people around me. I spent most of my time alone last winter and didn't even care to get to know or build friendships with the eight roommates I had at the time. As I became more and more lost, I was more confused and even more shut off from others.
I was seriously miserable, but I told myself and others that I wasn't.
It was definitely a strange state to be in. Deep down I knew things weren't okay, but at the same time I thought they were and I was so blind to what was really happening.
My "awakening" moment came almost two months ago and I'm grateful it did, no matter how terrible or hard it was. It opened my eyes and led me to where I am today. I feel complete freedom and self realization.
I am the happiest I have felt in a long time. I really can't explain the overwhelming feeling.
I guess the purpose of this pretty vague, brief, personal story is that there is always hope. If you are stuck, if you are feeling down, if you're angry, you can change. It may seem hard, but the answers are actually so simple.
So that is what ultimately has led me to starting this blog. Indescribable inspiration, happiness, and the new perspective I have gained just in the past month. I have so many thoughts and new ideas that I can't wait to share.
I have been on such a continuous high for the past week. It's a feeling I honestly don't think I've ever experienced. You know the feeling you get after accomplishing something you've been stressed about? Or how your eyes feel so much clearer after letting out bottled up emotion and crying? I've had an extreme combination of those two feelings.
Unfortunately, as in most cases, this amazing feeling came after hitting an extremely low point. In fact, that low point lasted a whole year.
I'm sure we all say this, and I know I have a few times, but this past year has probably been the most challenging one for me so far. I have kept so many things to myself in the past year, ultimately because of fear. I kept myself from feeling any type of emotion, which led to a few emotional breakdowns.
I hate to be that person who blames all their problems on someone else, but I believe people have a huge affect on you. Because of just one person and their power over me, I completely lost myself. I became manipulated. I was in a constant fog for a year. I didn't know who I was or what I was even doing. I lost my vision and direction. I knew I needed to change these feelings, but I felt so stuck. I decided to ignore the reality of it and became angry at myself and others. For some reason, it made me cut myself off from people around me. I spent most of my time alone last winter and didn't even care to get to know or build friendships with the eight roommates I had at the time. As I became more and more lost, I was more confused and even more shut off from others.
I was seriously miserable, but I told myself and others that I wasn't.
It was definitely a strange state to be in. Deep down I knew things weren't okay, but at the same time I thought they were and I was so blind to what was really happening.
My "awakening" moment came almost two months ago and I'm grateful it did, no matter how terrible or hard it was. It opened my eyes and led me to where I am today. I feel complete freedom and self realization.
I am the happiest I have felt in a long time. I really can't explain the overwhelming feeling.
I guess the purpose of this pretty vague, brief, personal story is that there is always hope. If you are stuck, if you are feeling down, if you're angry, you can change. It may seem hard, but the answers are actually so simple.
So that is what ultimately has led me to starting this blog. Indescribable inspiration, happiness, and the new perspective I have gained just in the past month. I have so many thoughts and new ideas that I can't wait to share.
